我现在董说，要等人不容易的。。
很少人做得到。。有些人说，Singapore还有很多选择，可是我还是不会放弃的。。
虽然是不容易的，可是我觉得她是值得等的。。
我有可能不应该那么真心。。因为还年青。。还早。。可是我不想没了这个机会。。
如果我放弃，我永远一定会后悔的。。
她跟我同兴趣，喜欢的东西很多都一样，好聊，同样要做的工，要去哪holiday，喜欢shopping,爱读书，对自己的future很重要，很爱她父母，弟姐妹。。
她是我喜欢的type..
她时常会鼓励我。。支持我。。
我很感谢她。。
我也想要时间来比较认识她。。跟他比较熟。。
对我来说。。她是很特别的。。
她很努力的去做工，为了要帮她父母。。不用那么辛苦。。
虽然她会很辛苦，半读，半做工。。可是那是她的选择啊。。 我只能鼓励，支持和帮她努力点。。因为她也想靠自己。。
我的camp的朋友们也是很鼓励我，支持我，对我很好，我很爱他们，帮我好多。。
希望我们改次还有机会见到咯！。。 多谢谢你们噢！！！~
He’s living a life in shadows, Faking it with smiles on the outer..
Music is his Only Friend, He’s Partially Blind, Lived a Life of Lies and Lives in A World Of Darkness,Waiting for a seed of hope..
It’s not a drama.. and it’s true..
Now that seed of hope.. just appeared.. and it’s growing..
Friends, Future, Special someone, And a goal in life~..
I only get to express my feelings through blogs.. I dont wanna talk about this in reality.. My life to some might seem.. happy, easy going, and relaxed.. that’s what they think..
I try to smile and laugh all the time.. not being what i was when i was a kid
I had a few morale lifts from my very good friends.. they’re both couples..
thank you very much..
About her.. I think.. I’ll just leave it as that..
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My thoughts when i was a high school student..
There are a lot of cases where students tend to forget what youth really means..
Most students think that youth is all about fun.. Yes .. fun.. that’s where most students tend to get lost..
If I were to ask you.. What does "FUN" mean?.. How would you answer?
Spending 24 hours in a cyber cafe?.. ending up broke and useless in the mere future?
Skipping school and screwing up your exam grades for some mere friend "politics?"
People laugh at those who try very hard to have a bright future.. Now Why?.. Cause they’re nerds and geeks?..
If you had a group of friends you used to hang out with.. but then realised that your on the wrong path.. what would you do?..
If you try to stop.. they think of you as a "traitor", a "loser"..
If you told them you wanna study hard for your exams.. they talk as if it’s a bad thing to study hard.. They say that your betraying them for your studies?
If you go on.. You’ll realise that sooner or later your future will just … "die"
Even if you stopped mixing with them.. they’ll just stab you every now and then from every direction..
There are some who you try to get close with them.. taking relationship seriously.. but they don’t.. They’ll just talk about you behind your back..
You try to talk to them when your having problems.. They pretend to be friends
But then stabs you behind ..
It’s like.. when you say you have problems driving .. or had a bad date.. they’ll just think that your the worst driver and the worst date.. and never ask you out when the occassion has anything to do with your weaknesses..
To see some best friends.. like mich and lyn … Reminds me of when I was a kid.. having quality time with my best friends.. But I’ve been missing such moments ever since we split ways and migrated to different countries.. Do I envy them?..
Sometimes little mistakes and problems tend to get into the way of a very loose friendship…
I admit that I’ve made mistakes that I didn’t realise I did..
To hurt others without even knowing is something that would cut me deep..
Am I to be blamed.. or are they too sensitive?..
Wether it’s me or them.. Everytime I get too close to them.. Problems arise
I admit that I’ve been declining invitations to occasions
To have friends that I need not to play "the game" with is something I wish I would have..
But I’ve been thinking.. if this is what everybody wishes to have.. A relationship that lasts forever… Why not look at myself before doing so?..
To have a friend that will watch your back and support you no matter what the cost is.. to have a friend that spends quality time with you.. that understands you..
—stop—
Do I have what it takes to be what I just mentioned just now?.. It’s hard right?.. Yea.. that’s why it’s rare to see friends that you can trust…
A friend whom i can really trust.. yea I’ve that now.. and I’m very happy to have them as my friends..
I need not bother about my looks.. my image.. when im in front of them.. That was the first time i really got to be My true self..
To my friends.. thank you very much..
I just got a very very serious lecture from my dad .. and it’s not in a good tone..
I did very very bad in my O levels.. I told him I would try my best.. but he’s totally dissapointed with my results.. He’s already very mad.. and said if I do not get good results on my first term.. I’m done.. I’m going back to m’sia..
On his opinion.. he thinks I’m the kind of kid who spends money on clothes and all.. waste his time playing games.. lazy to work on any projects , assignments or homework.. stupid and not ready for a relationship with any girls at all..
He does not see his child as what he is..
WHY? does he not see what I truly am made of?..
This is what most mistakes parents do.. they think they understand their child… but they totally do not at all..
Putting aside all the misery I had for my O levels / spm results.. I’m gonna try my very best and going to put a full 120% effort on my studies in singapore..
I don’t wanna waste anymore time on useless efforts on stuffs that are not worth my time..
I wanna have my own family.. clear the misery out of my dad’s non-stop work.. My mom.. who had me entered earth.. in the year 1989… and of course.. her..
My friends are important as well.. i won’t forget the times we had together.. regardless of friends overseas, campmates, schoolmates, classmates and tuition mates..
Now.. it’s about time I fight for something in my life..
A goal.. in life.. A dream to become the world’s top designer..
I don’t wanna live in a life of misery any longer..
If i fail this semester.. I’m done for..
So …
I apologize to anyone if i did not .. fully pay attention to ..
My family’s not rich.. but my dad’s working like hell for my education fees.. so is my uncle.. (my dad’s eldest brother).. he’s paying half for my fees..
They both think the same way.. of me..
They just don’t get me..
My dad asked me to think clearly of what I’m supposed to do overseas..
to waste time for fun .. or to success
He said .. if your poor or dumb.. noone would come close to me.. not friends.. not girls..
He thinks I don’t like pressure and effort.. I never said I can’t work under those circumstances.. anyone doesnt like that.. but I simply just said that when i chose courses.. but multimedia aint easy.. it’s widely known and popular nowadays..
I’d have to fight with my sweat and blood to succeed..
I’m not going to fail.. again.. never…
There are stuffs i always keep from my parents.. as secrets..
So they don’t know what i really do normally.. The stuffs i tell them and the stuffs they see me do at home.. is what they think i do everyday..
"She" asked me to try my very best to prove to my parents that i’m not rubbish..
And I really will..
For my parents, her and myself.. I won’t fail again.. I’d succeed as a world reknown designer..
It’s very challenging .. but It’s my type of game to play..
..虽然我懂说我们是不可能的，可是我不想放弃，我还是会等你的..
